nationals is over.

i've returned home with a silver medal in 200m and a 7th position for my 100m. oh well. everyone knew tt i m really really disappointed with myself for my 100m race... but guess there's nothing much i can do about it. like everyone says, its the experience that matters. i should be contented with the chance given to me? yeah, maybe i should..

well, i dont know. i just know that i let everyone down. mr lim says " its okay." but i know he's just trying to console a crying girl. everyone says i did a good race. but i knew it wasnt. i was not even running my best. and to imagine i even did such a lousy timing. i lost to so many of them. my confidence are all shattered. at that point of time, i really feel like breaking down once again. i only have myself to blame...

i close my eyes and the race appeared. i tried hard to forget about it but its just so difficult. i know i can do it. but i just needs more courage. i think i'm such a loser. a loser who forever cannot overcome her phobia of that starting blocks. a loser who is forever frightened by tt false start. i've let mr lim and all the others down...i'm sorry.





but this is not the end of my life in track. i swear i will overcome this phobia. i swear i will bring more glory for mr lim. i swear i will win the others. i will be a loser. no more.

i'm going to rule the race once again. watch me again.

a little glamour goes a long way;
12:28 PM;