emo?
nah;have been staring at the screen for a
few minutes, didnt know what to blog about. its not tt nth has happened to my life;
its just that;so much things have happened and i
just dont know where to start.
competition's coming in exactly
21 days time, and i dare to say that i'm
so not prepared for it,
with slow 400m timings and bad kneelifts coming upand all.i think i'm deproving; or rather,
not improving at all.had training in school today, and the weather's like a
hundred degrees outside there, mind you, its really burning on the black track. had
no mood for training at all, and was
really very tired due to the weather.
was
super happy for mr lim and magdalene, but at the same time,
i question myself ;am i improving?do i dare say that i can beat my pb again this year?NO.suddenly
i cant see where i'm running to,
i dont know how far i can run,
i dont know how high i am gonna fly.was on the
verge of collasping on the track during training, but
i told myself its okay cuz the weather's too hot today, but actually, it was
all an excuse to make myself feel better about the fact that
i'm not improving at all.
discouraged.have no idea where my strength has gone to.maybe its time to give up...have no mood for trainings nowadays;
so
many things are bugging me and they'll continue to be a
stone weighing on my heart when these problems
are unsolved.but i'm trying
my best to cover every cruel fact that's happening.
but no one appreciates.
backstabbing happens.unhappiness lingers on and on and on.and after what i just found out today, you're not a part of my team anymore.itshardtotakethelead.you shield the team by taking up the harsh scoldings;but no one is even aware of what u're doing.no one show a single sign of appreciation.all those fake concerns and whispering are redundant.somedays.
i'm gonna free myself from these hazards....
my keyboard's wet.
